Oh, I remember that feeling! It’s awful, isn’t it?
The other day I was getting ready to do a video for my Root of All Healing Self-Healing Program where I was sharing my earliest memory of that feeling. I had been in pain and discomfort for 10 years and no doctor had been able to diagnose what was wrong. I felt so helpless.
And there I was reliving that feeling for the first time in many years, thinking to myself, “Oh my, I had forgotten what this feels like.” In all candor, it has been a long time since I felt helpless.
When you or a client tell me you are feeling lost and feel your hope slipping, I can assure you my heart opens to you. My heart holds you with every word, tear and frustration. Your pain rekindles a memory of a time when healing felt that difficult to me. I feel compassion, but not the panic or fear that I used to feel personally.
Sure, I still have physical challenges. I just finished going through menopause. I still cut myself occasionally or let my joints get stiff from lack of care. I live in a body. They are built to respond to their environments and they age.
But they are also built to repair and rejuvenate. And every time I compromise my body, I get a chance to put that hard-earned awareness into practice. Gratefully now, I heal without the sense of helplessness.
Because I have healed so darned many times! I have finally come to understand that calling my body to its full health is part of the journey. It does not mean that anything is wrong with me and it doesn’t mean that the condition I am healing is going to last forever.
Everything changes. Including my body. Healing is consciously helping oneself in experiencing physical and emotional freedom.
Suffering occurs when we are feeling afraid—especially when we are afraid there is nothing that we can do and we will be stuck with the pain and discomfort forever.
I suffered when I felt helpless.
So, how does helplessness go away? My helplessness went away each and every day, and each and every moment that I compassionately honored my feeling of helplessness and then told myself I was going to do whatever it took to heal.
I harnessed the energy that was going into feeling stuck and despondent and used that very same energy to learn how to become a happy person living in a happy body.
I went to retreats, took classes, went to healers, and learned how to use my healing gift in the most effective way possible. I faced the difficult emotions behind my physical pain and learned how to release them. I tended to my healing each and every day in the same way I would care for a new-born baby, a kitten or puppy.
I nurtured myself into a new life—one without suffering, beyond feeling helpless.
You see, I watched my mother and father suffer before they died. They felt frustrated and helpless in the face of cancer. So when it was time for me to face my MS, I decided that even though it too was considered a terminal disease, I was going to heal.
Every day became a dedication to healing, and now each day is a dedication to awakening, including through the messages within my body.
As you now know, I recorded what I have learned during these 30 years in my book and in my self-healing program. Why should anyone have to suffer? I don’t believe anyone should.
But I do know it takes dedication, tremendous love and support to heal. If I could look you in the eyes right now I would tell you how precious you are and how much you deserve to give yourself the happiness and freedom within your body that you want.
And I would tell you I am here. I’m right here beside you, walking every step of the way, if that is what you want. I will meet you in the dream-time, hold you in my meditations, teach you in class, listen to you in counseling, sing to you, sit with you in circle…because when one of us heals ourselves, we heal the whole of humanity.
We end the helplessness and we end the suffering.
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